I have a very busy, messy, disorganised brain.  One of the quirks I have (and I have a kinda love/hate relationship with this)… is my propensity to generate ideas.  On the one hand… I like that I’m full of ideas.  It’s been a character trait of mine for as long as I can remember (my other personalities will confirm this)… and I like that it’s easy for me to think up new ideas and to invent new concepts and projects.

On the other hand… it’s mentally exhausting.

It’s like the cakes are coming out of the cake machine on a conveyer belt…  but there’s too many of them, and they’re coming too fast… and there’s no time to ice them or eat them or store them or sell them… so they just start falling off the end of the conveyer belt in a big messy, sticky pile… and still… more cakes come.  And more cakes.  And more….

That’s my head.

Anyhoozers….

So ONE of the ways that I manage my sanity…  is to journal.  

Except – my journals aren’t neat little moleskins with dated, neatly written entries.  My journals are dog-eared books of all shapes and sizes… and on the inside… you’ll find the regurgitated contents of my brain on any given day.   So… there’s scribbles and quotes and photos and bits of scrap and blobs of paint (I think in colours and textures almost as much as I think in words).

So… (at the risk of confirming a certain amount of lunacy)…  here’s some of my odd doodles (PS:  this is the tip of the proverbial iceberg.  I have mountains of this stuff.  Mountains, I tell you!)…

Heather Costaras

WHO are the mysterious “they-who-say”??  (a mystery I’m still pondering on….)

A quote from Anthony Hopkins that I try to remember…

A quote from Anthony Hopkins that I try to remember…

The front page of the Durban Film Festival booklet (I liked the design) and a little rant about systems...

The front page of the Durban Film Festival booklet (I liked the design) and a little rant about systems…

A lovely quote from Anne Lamott… and the author of Winnie the Pooh...

A lovely quote from Anne Lamott… and the author of Winnie the Pooh…

A random collage (whilst thinking about stupid rules) and a postcard I got from Knotts Berry Farm in California (many years ago)...

A random collage (whilst thinking about stupid rules) and a postcard I got from Knotts Berry Farm in California (many years ago)…

The beginnings of my Fuck-It List … (I have a number of extra items I could add)… and b&w version of the front cover of a chapter of one of my Hatbooks.

The beginnings of my Fuck-It List … (I have a number of extra items I could add)… and b&w version of the front cover of a chapter of one of my Hatbooks.

A pile of ideas… and another illustration (lots and lots of dots) drawn whilst fretting about the noise in my head.

A pile of ideas… and another illustration (lots and lots of dots) drawn whilst fretting about the noise in my head.

Experimenting with different styles of illustration… and a John Wayne quote on courage (because I was feeling particularly chicken that day)...

Experimenting with different styles of illustration… and a John Wayne quote on courage (because I was feeling particularly chicken that day)…

More ranting about systems. The quote on the right is not mine (I have to dig up who said it)… but I resonated with it nonetheless….

More ranting about systems. The quote on the right is not mine (I have to dig up who said it)… but I resonated with it nonetheless….

On the left… a scribble whilst thinking about systems and being puppets… and on the right, a photo I took in Mozambique … with some scrawled idealisms...

On the left… a scribble whilst thinking about systems and being puppets… and on the right, a photo I took in Mozambique … with some scrawled idealisms…

Trying (and failing) to work out my elevator speech. WTF am I supposed to say to people when they ask the inevitable: "So… what do YOU do??"

Trying (and failing) to work out my elevator speech. WTF am I supposed to say to people when they ask the inevitable: “So… what do YOU do??”

So – there you have it.  The tip of the iceberg.

Anyone else out there that deals with ideas and head-noise in this manner?  How do YOU manage your ideas?  (Maybe I can garner some tips!)…  🙂