So…
We have been planning and preparing for this for months… years! And finally…. (finally!!!)… the debts have been paid… the stuff has been purged… the house has been rented… the sentimentals have been stored away… our plane tickets are booked and paid for… our luggage is packed… and we are leaving tomorrow.
And do I feel excited?
No.
I feel exhausted. And I feel drained. And I feel… a bit… indifferent. In fact, I could barely pack the luggage today. All I really wanted to do was… sleep!
This irritates me.
A lot.
I was expecting to be leaping up and down with undiluted glee… I mean: we are about to hop on a plane and launch the nomadic life that we have wanted… and dreamed of… for SO LONG!!! And we have worked so hard for this!
Surely I should have butterflies in my stomach?
Surely I should be feeling like a little child, waiting for Santa on Christmas Eve?
Surely I should be giddy with joy? Babbling with excitement? Grinning like a manic Cheshire cat?
But nope.
All I feel like is… bed. And sleep. Lots and lots of uninterrupted sleep.
And so that’s what I’m going to do right now: sleep.
If there are any travelling families out there who have experienced the same thing – I would love to hear from you! Is this dead-pan, indifferent, exhausted response normal? Do other people feel so “blah” before they embark on a spectacular adventure that they’ve been looking forward to for… like… ever?
I felt something similar, after all the build up and planning our official launch was pretty anticlimactic. We were exhausted from the effort. We were sort of numb for the first week or so and then the waves of elation hit! All in all it has been a wild ride of ups and downs so far, but we would not (will not) give it up 🙂
Oh…. okay…. *relief*… I’m glad to know that I haven’t lost my marbles! I look forward to those waves of elation! 🙂
Yup, we were so exhausted we collapsed on a beach for 3 weeks once we’d left. And laundry and banking and bedtimes and gaffing about all come with you and none of that is very exciting either. But the scenery is different and so is the soundtrack, and the company is great and much loved. Breathe deep, and step out…
Thanks Jill! Beautifully said… and yes, I am deeply longing for some different scenery… and a different soundtrack…. *breathing deep & stepping out*….
Written like a true Idealist!!!!…..you have every right to be tired, emotionally and physically…sleep a lot on the plane!